I'm a Soldier...

<sub>Sound the bugle now... play it just for me
As the seasons change... remember how I used to be
Now I can't go on...I can't even start
I've got nothing left... just an empty heart.

I'm a soldier... wounded so I must give up the fight
There's nothing more for me... lead me away
Or leave me lying here

Sound the bugle now... tell them I don't care
There's not a road I know that leads to anywhere
Without a light, I fear that I will stumble in the dark
Lay right down and decide not to go on

Then from on high, somewhere in the distance There's a voice that calls,
"Remember who you are... if you lose yourself,
Your courage soon will follow,
So be strong tonight... remember who you are"

Yeah, your a soldier now,
Fighting in a battle,
To be free once more.
Yeah, that's worth fighting for

= Bryan Adams - Sound the Bugle</sub>


I've been getting alot of crap in my life these last couple of years, whether it's happening to me or my loved ones. It never seems to stop. It's one thing after another and even though there are alot of people suffering worse out there, I still continously question why all this shit and bad luck and unfortunate reprocussions come my way. At the end of the day I find myself saying 'For fuck sake, it's just not fair.'

And I know my 'bullies' are probably going to see this and rip at me because of it, but I don't care. Because even though people look at me, talk about me, or berate me I am proud of who I am. I grew up this way for a reason, I didn't become the person I am today by accident, yes it makes me feel shit sometimes but when push comes to shove I wouldn't want to be anybody else. I have good friends, a great family and a fantastic imagine that makes my life so much easier. Call it escapism, call it running away from reality - I don't care. It helps me deal and that's the way it's going to continue to be!

People out there may hate you for unknown reasons, life may throw you hard punches unexplainably and no matter how hard you try, the good deeds you do will sometimes go wrong. But don't give up. Please don't give up. Use what ever good there is in your life to make it bearable, and if you depend on it enough; however small it was at the beginning, it'll grow into an unbeatable entity in that nothing can destroy.

I hope this has helped people out there having a hard time and if not, it's just some self-expression of mine.

All the people behind me belong to their very much respected owners ^^